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Thanks to LGH

2009-05-08T23:13:00.003+08:00

A good friend called me that day. Have a warm feeling, as she called me after reading my blog. Good to have good friend to understand me, and still keep in touch always....thanks dear! You truely warm my heart =)

It Is Not Because Of "It's time" This Time!

2009-04-26T16:02:00.003+08:00

Have job grade upgrading last two weeks, together with the VB letter. This time, only have the feeling of "promotion". Why I say so? because this time only 24 people in the company in the rank M has promotion, and so far I still haven't heard anyone else in my dept is in the list (maybe I am too busy with work until no time to 8). Some colleagues in the other dept congratulated me when met up in

Where is my other cake?

2009-04-19T17:38:00.002+08:00

Receiving letter about our performance bonus last few days....Really not much, compare to last year. Reason been given, what else? is our downtime of economic....same as increment. Been told that mine is consider good compare to the others...as getting an upgrading this time. However, the % of increment is really insignificant. Having dinner with a friend last night. He said his company is giving

Am I not good enough?

2009-04-11T00:01:00.003+08:00

It has been long long time I didn't update my blog. No emotion been touched for things happen.Something has changed this few days. Attending a Leadership training for the past 3 days. Beside the theoretical part, we have received our own motive and values analysis. On top of that, 360 degree of survey has been done and received a bomb from what I perceive myself and what other people's perception

Some updates

2009-02-07T14:24:00.005+08:00

Winterwale complained that I have not update my blog for quite a long time. I am not giving any excuse here. Instead, I admit that...I am lazy to update it! haha....Back from Chinese New Year holiday, and already been full force working in office for one week. Will be another round of 昏天暗地 of working life soon.Before back to KL from CNY holiday, change a new hair style. A brighter look =)Tonight

Gain weigth??

2009-01-01T22:06:00.003+08:00

Recently there are three person said I have gained a bit of weight. Some girls will be upset when hearing this, but I am not a normal girl, hehe. I am happy when hearing this....too thin all this while. Good if I can gain some weight. Cheers!

5 Days holiday in KL

2008-12-28T15:13:00.003+08:00

Today have a relaxing and happy day...Spent an hour in gym. While cycling, playing "monster face" with a few children playing outside the gym, haha...Just finishing do hair treatment to my hair. Spending some times in facebook. Really attracted by it, haha.Everything run smooth today, except broadband line always get cut today. Guess a lot of people is surfing net on Sunday afternoon.Oh ya,

了解自己_1

2008-12-27T09:22:00.003+08:00

昨天去找了一位大师批一批命盘。总觉得生活上仿佛缺了点什么。我是在找着几把锁匙开启更美好的人生吧。不过说回来，我，应该是更加认识自己了吧。以前总觉得是生活背景造就我太会保护自己，总觉得家人并不能给我太多的保护，所以我只有自己保护自己。原来并不是。唉，应该说是我的与生俱来的个性就如此吧。昨晚睡不好，隐隐约约中，仿佛看到小学一二三年级的我。那时，本来很爱在校园奔跑的我跌了几次后，就不再奔跑了，并让我养成了走路时常看着地面的坏习惯。怕伤，怕痛，太会保护自己，以至人生的那么多年以来，失去了奔跑人生的机会。我像是只螃蟹，一丁点刺激，就张开我的钳子。或许就是那么的年轻不懂事，伤了别人而不自知。不懂怎么的，耳边响起蓝又时的“曾经太年轻“。了解自己，从而改进，我是那么想的。

The Reason of Mood Swinging??

2008-12-27T08:23:00.003+08:00

Just sign in Facebook yesterday...well, quite nice I found, so far...maybe next time will spend more time there...Went to see a 大师 yesterday. Get some advise and found out something about me, which something to understand myself better. Well, wow, that's really informative! I shall share more information in future, most probably in Mandarin I guess. Better explaination. Anyway, would like to

???

2008-12-20T21:55:00.002+08:00

Stop updating my blog for quite some times....A few interesting happen for the past few weeks...but today...just no mood to write it in long...maybe...next time...Today just don't know why...mood is like stock market in the world...

New HP

2008-11-28T00:26:00.002+08:00

Just would like to inform, I have bought a new handphone already. Still haven't get use with my new phone. As lots of my contact are stored in my old phone, thus lost contact with friends who get to know in this two years plus. Still haven't find out way to retrieve back my old data. The most embrassing part is, I stored my pin number for MM Wallet to top up my prepaid phone. Cham....

Out of Norm

2008-11-27T23:30:00.003+08:00

Went for a movie with colleagues just now after work. A bit rush in office before leaving. The movie is not very great, but anyway, quite a nice one. Twillight, a love story between a human teenager girl with a vampire "teenager". Long time didn't go to cinema for love story. Feel like some rainy drops after a hot day, hehe.Still not sleep yet as tomorrow taking half day for yearly medical check

Summary of message to my friends....as at 23/11/2008

2008-11-23T21:38:00.003+08:00

Today accidentally dropped my handphone. Not my 1st time, but guess is the last time for this motorola handphone, because it is spoilt now. Tonight free of phone connection both with family and friends. Thought will have more time to online but find out not really. Guess I'm busy enjoying my life, haha! (note: learning this from my favourite tv series "Criminal Minds". Voice mail:"Hai...this is

Owe you, but not my fault!

2008-11-08T00:04:00.002+08:00

Just finish drafting a letter to send to my boss's boss tomorrow morning, due at 10am. Take quite some time to draft the letter as it's regarding a choice to make in our position to take in year 2009 and 2010. Accepting the choice offering is easier, but if declining, of course need to write it in a proper manner.Well, this weekend even though not full pack with activities, but still unable to

无题

2008-10-26T21:44:00.004+08:00

不知道不懂我的人，每每看我的部落格，会是怎么样的想法。我，是个悲观内向的，有个性有想法的，开朗活泼的，平凡得不碍眼的？曾经和一位朋友谈过，通常有感觉写东西时，心情都是down down的。那是因为，快乐的时候，我们通常与朋友一起分享，鲜少在家一个人慢慢度过。在家时，快乐的心情也不像心情不好时可以谈得一大篇。受伤时，却总爱独自躲起来，写写心情日记，当作记载也好，发泄也罢。今晚，感觉很好，超开朗的，嗯，不懂要写些什么tim，哈哈。哦，前天，那位朋友用一餐饭还了填歌词的债，还蛮不错的嘛，嘿嘿。嗯，不懂还要说什么了。看样子，只好乖乖的读书了，呵呵。

幸福女人

2008-10-26T21:19:00.003+08:00

前天，拉了几位女同事去Hotel Equatorial听了一个讲座，《幸福女人360`，Part I，全方位幸福〉。蛮不错的。有几点想与大家分享。1）成功幸福的女性必须装备自己的“5个原理“：知识，见识，常识，胆识，尝试。2）19-35岁：学习的黄金时期。不要只会说：我不会，我不喜欢，我不要。3）要自己时常鼓励自己。每天早上要听节奏快，鼓励性的歌。当我们能够抬头挺胸走出去时，才有本事在外打一场漂亮的战。还有一点，人生总是先苦后甜，所以现在不要怕辛苦。愿大家共勉之。

随想

2008-10-19T23:31:00.003+08:00

Received a sms from a good friend, asked me to comment in her blog, on an article posted. Wow, regarding wisdom of life some sort of that. This afternoon visiting an old friend, with her new born baby girl. Chit-chatting. Talking about someone around us, who just broke off in a relationship. They started from being good friend, but now end with "no more friend". Sometime I wonder, who is the

Some Interesting Photos From Bali....

2008-09-28T16:26:00.004+08:00

Some interesting photos taken in Bali trip in July 2008....Hotel Adi Dharma's breakfast:Famous and delicious food in Bali - Babi Guning:Starbuck in bottle:

Should I wear big size T-shirt again?

2008-09-14T15:17:00.003+08:00

Yesterday received a comment from my good friend. Well, actually is a comment from another friend, and both of them feeling the same way. They asked me don't ever wear big size T-shirt again!...after saw my photos taking in Bali...for your information, during the 5 days 4 nights trip there, I did wear a non body-tide T-shirt for one day.Reason of my friend given, after she gets comment from

Holiday in Bali....Day 2, 3 & 4

2008-09-07T00:58:00.008+08:00

Holiday in Bali....some scenaries that impressed me....Day 2: Kintamani - Lake Butar (the 2nd largest lake in Bali) besides Volcano:Having lunch at restoran while enjoying the good viewDay 3:Lovina - went to see dolphin, but mostly are video taken, so will not sharing here....took some photos for sunrise from the boat too.Tanah Lot:Day 4:Besakih Temple - The Mother of Temple in Bali

Chinese Song's Lyric

2008-09-07T00:43:00.003+08:00

Many many years ago, a friend asked me to try to write lyric for songs and he composes the music. I have tried one or two. Not good comment I received, frankly speaking. Still need a lot of improvement. The effort stopped there and both of us didn't go further after that. We were busy, haha.Yesterday, emm, should be the day before yesterday, a friend called, asked me to help her "aiya sai lou" to

Some Thought on 06092008

2008-09-07T00:03:00.004+08:00

Went out for movie and dinner with two friends just now. Normally I shall not watch this kind of movie in cinema, but due to celebrating my friend's belated birthday, we did as he wish =) (Happy Belated Birthday!!)Have some thought and want to leave a few notes here tonight....regarding the movie. A movie from Singapore, "Money Not Enough" some sort of that...the mother has Alzheimer's disease

Holiday in Bali....Day 1

2008-08-23T15:22:00.009+08:00

2008 July 19th to 23rd, I went to Bali, Indonesia for a holiday, with friends. Quite a good experience. Below are some photos for sharing......1st day: some scenaries that impressed me very much:Uluwatu, scenaries along the way before reached a temple on the top of the hill:Jimbaran beach - sunset:Having dinner at Jimbaran beach:Will share more photos in the next load.....

Approaching....

2008-08-23T15:11:00.002+08:00

Last Tuesday, stop by a petrol station nearby my office to pump petrol and tyre air. A black came to approach me, want to be friend as he said. His car was park at the next pump. He is from US, comes to Malaysia for a holiday. He asked for my phone number, haha. He helped me to pump air to my car's tyre. Not bad, as have people doing "tough" thing for me, haha....well, at last just gave him my

Why so busy?

2008-06-23T23:39:00.002+08:00

Recently, always feel time is not enough....well, I know in time management, prioritize is very important. I try to manage my personal time as well, but feel like, there is not much result seen.Since promoted last two months, newspaper been distributed to me every working day. I choose to receive Sin Chew Daily. Good to say, I am more updated to news now. Short point to say is, I become busier

Gym vs Reading

2008-06-08T16:00:00.003+08:00

Just back from gym....spending half hour there. Have not exercise for a long long time. Today start with a short one, not already not bad, isn't?These two weeks, spend most of my time for reading, beside working. Bought a lot of books from KL bookfest last two weeks + books bough last year also haven't finish reading yet....look like very busy, haha....anyway, that's true....knowledge is not

Beh syiok

2008-06-01T13:52:00.002+08:00

Recently there is a movie with the story of a super power guy, and named himself as Dragonfly....I haven't watch this movie, and do not plan to watch it at all....Even though the movie is nothing related with me, but I feel "beh syiok" of the link of name "dragonfly"....don't know when, and don't know how....when "dragonfly" become so "tai chok" (cantonese)...."Drogonfly" should be appear in poem

Smell....memory....

2008-05-31T22:40:00.000+08:00

Last few days, in office's ladies room, don't know who, left the smell of make-up there.....the smell, exactly the same I had long long time ago....my auntie's make-up case....When I was small, whenever there was any function like relative's wedding, my mom and aunties will gather together in a room for make-up. That time I was small, I asked for the same treatment and at last my auntie make up

Bento

2008-05-18T20:44:00.003+08:00

This morning called my mom.....things not as bad as I think....maybe I just over act....anyway, hope my mom's health condition will getting better and better each day....Met a friend in MidValley during noon time.... spent $ to buy things again....aiyaya...really spent lots this month....Bought bento for my dinner before leave....guessing want to save money, choosing one....just now had dinner,

Tears, Flying with The Moon and Stars......

2008-05-18T03:25:00.004+08:00

Unable to sleep tonight....feel so so sorry and blamed myself of saying something wrong to my mom in phone call tonight....my tone was quite rough at that time, at least myself feeling so....feeling so down....Unable to sleep, suddenly think of a book I bought two years ago, but not really read about it....a book teaching young children how to take care of parents when they are getting older....

Rumours....

2008-05-17T22:31:00.001+08:00

Last night received a call from my lovely auntie from Cameron Highlands. She purposely called me to off my handphone last night as hearing her friends said about the kong tao thing made from Indonesian. She said some people at her place already kena....off course I have asked about what have happen....well, can't say I totally or fully believe what she said, but I just feel no harm to follow.....

MSN time....

2008-05-13T00:31:00.003+08:00

Initially the purpose of online today is to log in msn, to check out a friend in China, how is him....earthquake in China....a few city are affected....unfortunately still unable to log in the web....broadband speed very slow today....12.36am, finally log in...saw his "name" in the msn online list....should be still there...thank God!! 12.39am, sent out message but no reply from him....anything

发霉

2008-05-11T23:39:00.002+08:00

Today, and the coming a few days....might be "turning to mushroom" time....haha...do not understand what I say? yaya....well, exam is just around the corner, thus will have a few days continuously not working, just staying at home for final preparation....lock myself from any outdoor activities, i.e. working, meeting friends, dinner appointment etc.....always staying at home, 发霉liao la...Luckily

Dreaming....realizing....

2008-05-10T13:24:00.003+08:00

Long time didn't write in Mandarin...well....beside lazy to do the han yu ping xin, can't deny my han yu ping xin is getting worst in figuring the words I want, hahaha....typing in English is faster....just...sometime unable to really quote the vocab to express the feeling I want, haha.Long long time ago...when facing some weird feeling about something, but unable to figure out what is wrong (in

My Antenna Hilang....

2008-05-10T13:07:00.002+08:00

Last Monday....sent my car for washing and wax....after that, wonder why I no longer able to listen to radio while driving in the tunnel....and in the lower ground of car park....worked till late for the continuous few days, and forget to take a look at the antenna....until the day before yesterday....only realize it....my antenna kena curi!!Made a complaint to the shop of offering me car wash

Some remarks about life recently....

2008-05-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

Busy with work recently....at the meantime, preparing for exam again....weekdays focus on work, weekends for study.....exhausted....I don't know whether you know it or not....motorola's handphone has one disadvantage...where it keeps beeping when you do not read the incoming sms. Previously, if I sleep early and there is any sms, I will be waken up by the beeping sound of my handphone. Now? guess

Resigning

2008-04-29T00:08:00.002+08:00

Today heard a few colleagues going to resign....colleagues from IT depart who support our team. Well, feel down after hearing this....wondering when will be my turn to get a better and better offer, a better job, a better career future....and also wondering, how will be my life here after losing their support for this project? Getting another fresh hand to do this, well, I think I will ki siao

Maxis Broadband

2008-04-25T13:54:00.002+08:00

Last two weeks signed maxis broadband....at last can access internet at home....really a good feeling....by the way, spent more time doing this and that....less time to prepare for my study.....not good for this point as well, haha....Anyway, have to ganbatte!!

Sleepless night

2008-04-22T01:50:00.002+08:00

Tonight....don't know what happen....2.00am, my eyes and brain are still so so active....is it because of the tea during my dinner just now?? or there is something else?A few things happen today.....during the dinner, reply a friend's sms, to mention just only want to be a normal friend....well, can't understand for a friend who just met twice, how far he knows me....maybe I'm type of people who

2008-01-05T22:14:00.000+08:00

A few photos took for my last holiday, either in Singapore or hometown. Photos took in 2007 year end :)

A big surprise

2008-01-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

Today have a surprise. While watching a DVD, feel like there is an internet connection successfully dial-on, at my room!! wow!! Really a big surprise as I tried many many times ago to get a free wireless internet coverage but unsuccessfully. Guess there is someone near by room has wireless internet but does not block it with password. It's a good news for me, haha.Ok, if next time also so lucky

26-11-2007

2007-11-28T19:09:00.000+08:00

Long time didn't post anything here....unable to access internet in office for a period, luckily now can, after using some tricks to get the access. Well, for certain website, still be blocked :(Oh ya, would like to say sorry to Guay Hong, unable to see the video she invites me to watch in her blog. You know, the office's server, so slow....until I give up. I didn't accept the invitation to sign

No title

2007-08-18T09:33:00.000+08:00

Long time didn't post anything here....well, life is still go on....busy with work as usual....most of the time is too tired, and not much mood to sit down to write something....Quite a lot of things didn't share in this blog, for the last few months....Went for a 3 days 2 nights trip to Taman Negara, 1st time took flight, went to Singapore to attend a work related seminar and spent less than 48

分享蔡康永著作

2007-06-18T09:03:00.000+08:00

16/06/2007周末雨天9.27pm前阵子，跟朋友借了几本书看。有一篇，很有意思。一直想把它抄下，与我妈分享。刚才终于抄下了。也顺道与大家分享吧。<<有一天啊，宝宝。。。>> - 蔡康永著作散文篇 <<还债>>亲爱的宝宝：不要把活着的时候，都拿来还债。也不要等着别人来还债。所谓的“付出” ，常常只是我们实现自己梦想的方式。也许在实现的过程中，别人因此而受益，但这不表示别人就欠了我们的。同样的，我们如果受了益，也不表示我们就欠了别人的。好好养育小孩，或者好好教学生，也都是人为了实现自己的理想人生，所做的选择。既然不能被说成是投资，也就不必有等着回收的心情。凡事怀着“我在付出” 的心情，或者怀着“我在还债” 的心情，在这世界上生活下去的人，无疑都会不时兴起莫名其妙的感叹：“到底乐趣在哪里？”没有活着的乐趣。因为“欠债、还债” 的关系，本来就是最乏味的关系，不是在两个箭头的这一边，

2007-05-30T09:04:00.000+08:00

出生之犊之。。。。照

2007-05-30T09:02:00.000+08:00

07/05/2007 周一晴天 2.58pm好久没有写部落格了。那天在车上，大只平(套用Wayfarer对他的称呼) 才问起我来。停了好久，是懒吧。就像。。。。。。冬鲸，哈哈。曾经，我期待着拥有自己的数码相机。这样，我就可以想他们般，把照片铺上部落格。时常联络的朋友都知道，农历新年前我已经买了一部。上个月，才从新从台湾受训回来的老哥拿回我亲爱的相机。前阵子，去了几个地方，拍了一些照。角度的捕捉，还蛮满意的，嘿嘿。然，我会继续努力的：) 。请大家多多指教：)

红毛糖果

2007-05-08T18:19:00.000+08:00

07/05/2007 周一晴天 2.08pm今天，拿了MC在家，很听话地按时吃红毛糖果。今天比昨天好了好多，但能在家好好休息，何尝不是乐事？红毛糖果这个词，是我阿姨们开始用起的，说是这个年代，四五十岁的家伙，有那几个是没有吃红毛糖果的？！意思是指，高血压，糖尿病，或高胆固醇控制的药。说真的，现代人的身体确实是逊色了很多。别说是胖胖的周身病，连那些看似瘦瘦的也会高胆固醇。你我，还有什么不可能？Touch word的，嘿嘿，今天的MC，是因为发烧和轻微的腹泻。说回吃药，回想小时候，我到小学了，还不会吞药片。每次都要千辛万苦地把药磨成粉，再苦上加苦地把它一口气吃下去。话说一次，五叔从国外带了一瓶据说是很好的补药回来。虽然我心理痒痒的想试试，但看到它超大粒的草药，有点退缩了。结果不懂是在我妈还是五叔的汹涌下，我和我哥一人一半。半大粒的草药，在我试了几次后，结果是投进了屋后大水沟。过了很多很多个“

Life updates

2007-03-24T16:14:00.000+08:00

Long time didn't drop by to write anything here, since early of February. Wow, more than one month! Don't have time, and more accurately to say, don't have a good mood to sit down to write :)A lots of thing happened in the past one month. A few good movies I watched since the last one acknowledged to you, "Happy Birthday". I watched: Blood Diamond, The Pursuit of Happiness, Andy Lau's movie "Mo

Glad it works!

2007-02-04T14:53:00.006+08:00

Hi. Thanks for Wayfarer's suggestion. Putting my article in WordPad and only can post my articles in cyber cafe.Good to know I have a way to continue it again :)

还是刘若英

2007-02-04T14:53:00.005+08:00

03/02/2007 周末晴天 11.30pm刚写了一篇被刘若英主演的电影感动万分的文章，还有点意兴未尽。说说以前她演过的一部电影，到目前为止，我还影像深刻，触动内心的画面吧。说说<<二十，三十，四十>>，刘若英饰演的空姐，周旋于几个男人之间。有一次刘一个人在家病得软塌塌的，却没有一个人在身边照顾。那时她病焉焉地躺在沙发，说了一句话。她说，如果这个时候，哪一个人按她家门铃，她就嫁给那一位。心中有个触动。特别是在异乡驻住的单身女人，生病的时候，是多么的渴望有个人在身边照顾着你。只是一个肩膀也好。然，病痊愈后，甩开软弱，我们又得武装自己，在钢骨丛林中寻找着自己的位子。刘在母亲的墓前真情告白，说她也不是爱周旋于不同男人之中。她只是不肯定，到底哪一位才是她的。刘向母亲要求一个贴示，即使是一阵风吹过也好。如果真的有那么的一阵风，我们都会要吧。在任何人生抉择上，工作的，感情的，在迷茫彷徨中，

电影_生日快乐

2007-02-04T14:53:00.004+08:00

03/02/2007 周末晴天 9.40pm刚才终于看了<<生日快乐>>。说终于，是因为之前叮咚了一些事，还以为差点来不及在它下画前进场观看。喜欢刘若英，不愧是影后。情感控制得很写实。有几幕，我都流下了眼泪。从来，对荧幕剧情，每每感动了我，触动我内心深处的，我都不会愧于承认，我流下了眼泪。哭泣和流眼泪，对于我来说，是很不一样的。哭，是因为本身遇到的事，悲伤的，痛苦的。流眼泪，很多时候是对某些事物的感伤，感动。今天的电影，听达生说，故事是刘若英写的。有几幕，我很喜欢。刘若英饰演的小米对古天乐饰演的小南说，不是没个人都能出国，也都想出国。很多事情，好的坏的，无奈的可悲的，当事人才清楚。得与失，自己才知道怎么拿捏。在那个时候，小米对婆婆的情感，远胜过出国看看世界。而对小南来说，当停下脚步，回头看看时，会否遗憾，在二姐生命尽头前，没有常伴左右？生命只是一条线，而也没有人知道，做了另一个选择，

羡慕

2007-02-04T14:53:00.003+08:00

01/02/2007 周四晴天 6.36pm上了两天的Business Presentation Skills Training Class。给training的，是个洋佬。很年轻，算是蛮矮的，但很fit，也很好看。他也是个热爱cycling的人。时常单独骑脚车旅行。很羡慕他，可以借工作之便，到处旅行，又可以做自己爱做的事。想想，是我放不下，还是太多因数让我放不了？？有时后，太杞人忧天就是办不了事。。。。。

恼人的工作与人事

2007-02-04T14:53:00.002+08:00

01/02/2007 周四晴天 6.00pm工作，从来都没有不忙过。每天赶着这和那的。前天心情很不好。因为一位contract staff的粗心，而我又没有详细的检测清楚，结果提呈了上去被弹回来。感觉像个笨蛋。后，又听到我的Team Leader不爽这个这位stream lead时常assign东西给他做，而写信告到stream lead的上头。他的意思是他只是supervise整个work。暗地里是说那些工其实应该是我做的。Stream lead告诉上头说我手上已经有很多东西了，当然不可能再拼命压在我的头上来。欣慰的是，stream lead看到我的辛苦。心情低落的是，之前与team leader会谈了的表面结果，原来是个假象。工作，真的很累。。。。。之前发生了一些事。在忙与盲的工作中，在身体健康问题与身心疲累中，突然有位上头关心的问我工作情形。工作得很累，直说了。上头跟team

两个星期的终结

2007-02-04T14:53:00.001+08:00

21/01/2007 周日阴天 1.28pm已经两个星期没有写部落格了。公司从一个星期半前，宰断我和同部门同事们的上网密码使用权。我们这个部门，以前是拥有特权的。一直以来其他部门的Executives都不能上网，只有我们可以(借用工作上找资料的借口) 。然，不懂什么原故，IT部门说了些什么，部门老二就把我们这些小卒子的上网使用权给封了。所以呢，以后会少了上网update部落格的次数了，因为小妹家中没有宽频上网，只有得空得空到网咖上网去。好啦，说说这一两个星期发生在我身上的事吧(我还记得的，哈哈)。上个周末和朋友去算命。活了二十多个年头，第一次用八字算命。载自师父的言语：一：我会年纪越大，越迷信。哈哈，也蛮准的嘛，不然怎么二十多个年头前不算命的，那天跑去呢？说实在的，以前读书时，只要一步一步走下去，从小学，PMR，SPM，STPM，大学，没什么特别大的人生决择。然，现在在社会工作了四年多，

Disappointment

2007-01-21T16:41:00.000+08:00

In a cyber cafe right now. Have an article in my tumbdrive right now, but unfortunately this cyber cafe does not have Microsoft Words license. Thus I am unable to upload my article today (as you might know I am unable to access internet in office starting one and half weeks ago).Will see whether can get a cyber cafe with Microsoft Words nearby my house later or not, and of course with cheap rate,

瓶颈1

2007-01-08T09:04:00.000+08:00

07/01/2007周日晴 12.03am不懂最近是否对很多事都看开了很多。有些事可能当时是愤然的，不满的，但那股气来得快，去得也快。当抽到一些时间可以坐下来写写东西时，剩下的只是平伏了的情绪。少了那股澎湃暗涌，写下的文章，乏味得。。。我也想唾弃。总觉得最近仿佛为了交稿而交稿，有点像以前在大学与Wayfarer、冬鲸和进进出出的其他人合搞的月刊。我写出来的东西，感觉像垃圾。把高兴的事情写出来，好像是在写感恩录。把生活点滴写出来，仿佛是在写报告，而报告日积月累多得不想再写。有时有点感想感触的，却又只想留给自己。很矛盾的我，想写部落格，却又怕在里头被一层层解剖到体无完肤。从没试过赤裸裸的，坦荡荡的展现我的懦弱。所以。。。很佩服Wayfarer，永远都有那么多点子把部落格搞得有声有色。我，距离那条路，还远呢。。。。。。有点愧对他们对我的期望了。。。。。。

同事=朋友

2007-01-08T09:02:00.000+08:00

07/01/2007周末晴 11.09pm我自认交际能力超烂。从小到大，从来没有很大的交友圈子。虽然内心深处有股蠢蠢欲动，想豁出去大干一场疯狂的事，但现实中如此性格的我，还是安安份份地过了华小，初中，高中和大学生活。从小到大，同学很多。属于好朋友的没几个。求学的交友和社交圈子就不说了，谈谈踏入社会从同事变成的朋友吧。毕业后，我曾在一间学院求职两个月。结果在那儿只交到一位较好的朋友。后来在旧公司工作了三年半，现在还一直相约出来的，也只有一位。少得怪可怜的吧！也不知是否我择友条件太苛刻，还是什么的。会说到这，是因为刚才挂电给这位旧同事，才知她昨夜差点被掠夺钱包。钱包倒没弄丢，但却收了一身的外伤。衷心希望她早日痊愈。

潮州大戏

2007-01-08T08:57:00.000+08:00

06/01/2007 周末晴 10.39pm上个周末在家乡度过。那是我踏入社会工作以来，第一次在拿督公诞做大戏时回家。今年因为农历闰月，所以可以藉着新年假期回乡度假的同时，一并凑热闹。小的时候，戏台前挤满了人，特别是老人与小孩。现在，年老的一辈少了好多好多。埋入黄土的，离乡与在城里的儿女住的。而年轻的一辈，绝大多数都听不懂太深奥的潮州语。变相的，出现在棚前也只是凑凑热闹，吃吃喝喝后就离开。戏台前专注入戏的只是寥寥无几的几个人而已。潮州大戏，从小到大，我都听不懂花旦和演员们的对话。那几天，在那儿凑凑热闹的当儿，专心聆听后，竟然在他们的话语中，捕捉到一些词句。挺高兴的，特别是那些词句连我老哥也听不懂咯。我也不赖，是吧？！哈哈。

无题2

2007-01-04T08:54:00.002+08:00

03/01/2007 周三晴 10.22pm刚过的一个星期以来，其实有好多事情可以好好整理记录的，但此刻的我却不想只做个表面记录。心情真正感觉到的，却又不想公然天下。终于来到了以前曾经告诉Wayfarer的写部落格会面对的状况。天气渐凉。心中免不了会惦记着温暖。这时，只想要一杯巧克力，还是随手拿来一杯热水也都会将就？人的感觉何等复杂。是和非，真与假。有时候连自己也摸不着。。。。。。

无题1

2007-01-04T08:54:00.001+08:00

03/01/2007 周三晴 9.43pm刚才一位老朋友打电话来谈谈天，问起了我的近况。其实有点想冲口而出，告诉她你的事，但，我忍住了。曾经有个朋友告诉我，我不是个如我所说的，敏感度超弱的人。虽然那时我否认，但说实在的，确实不是。然而，敏感的感觉到是一回事，懂不懂处理又是另一回事。我把事情搞僵的次数太多了。也或许是我小题大做了。理智的我，是在克制着自己只对此事轻描淡写。愈在意会愈迷失的我可能会更不可理喻吧。随它，或许会更好，至少是现在。先把重心放在自己的人生观上。了解自己毕竟已经不容易。理性的我是这么的想，感性的我呢？像姨妈要来临前的低潮，漂浮在这寂静又寂寞的夜里。。。。。。

绅士风度

2006-12-26T08:33:00.000+08:00

23/12/2006 周六晴天 9.57pm昨夜，和一位朋友去看半夜场 <>。本篇文章不是写影评，而是想说说如何做个绅士。绅士，好像说得过于严肃了。英语gentleman，更让广大民众接受吧。好了，先说说身为一位男人该有的风度吧。看过我之前文章的朋友们都知道，我很欣赏给我们<<城市女性紧急求生课程>>的导师。归咎于现今社会女性安全问题，导师接送女性朋友回家还是什么的，不管是女性前辈，好朋友，普通朋友或是小辈，都接送到门口，看着她们进屋后，确定她们安全后才离去。在意的，不只是屋外的安全，也包括屋内是否被坏人潜入，俟机攻击。我认为，男人不该只对他“有兴趣” 的女人有绅士风度，对任何女性朋友也该如此。好了，说说我有了车子过后，本该行动独立的。然，还有很多东西要考虑的，不是吗？话说，如果你约了一位女性朋友看午夜场，你该让她自己驾车去吗？想想一个软弱女子，在午夜将近寂静的停车场，单独停车取车行走

忘了的幸福

2006-12-26T08:30:00.000+08:00

23/12/2006周六晴天 10.56pm上周一清假，拿了信用卡银行给的生日voucher，到一间beauty salon去。免费给的服务，包括一个背部scrub, 全身的按摩，再加涂她们特制的嫩肤乳液。当然，在之前，会有质询顾问向我推介很多说是超值的配套，说什么皮肤在冷气房干燥啦，要保养啦，要疼爱自己啦，可以减压啦。熟知我的同性朋友都知道我有个优点(有点自负，哈哈) 。当我决定在哪方面不花钱时，说什么，我都不会被诱惑。我可以在out of budget的时候，陪朋友shopping，冷眼旁观而无丝毫的心动。在面对别人向你死命推销的时候，有个不死方法，说你不想再花钱，不想出钱，她就会知难而退。当然你可以说我说得太难听，不过当你用尽各种美而堂皇的藉口都不管用时，那却是个超捧的方法。说回在那儿的服务，可还蛮不错的。最让我温暖的，反而是当按摩安娣用腹部顶着我的头，

Message to non-Mandarin reading friends....

2006-12-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

18/12/2006 Monday Sunny day 11.41amMy English is not good. I admit it.I have a few close friends who do not know how to read Mandarin. Some still know what is going on with my life recently. Some might not, as unable to get the news from my blog. To whom it may concern, this article is dedicated to them……To my good friend since my university time:Long time we didn’t really sit down and

周六日记+谢语

2006-12-19T09:22:00.002+08:00

18/12/2006 周一晴 11.08am周六，与Wayfarer被骗去了一个warehouse sales。如何被骗法，Wayfarer比我还情绪激动，肯定会在他的部落格记录。所以在这就不多提了。我呢，只是更在意浪费了的时间。然，人生中，当你失去一样东西的时候，你总会得到另一样东西。除了知道那儿的路怎么走之外，借此机会，我们也去了附近的Pay Less Books 书展。买了三本启发思想的书，才RM 16.07，真是够便宜的了。相比其他书局，或许一本都买不到吧。过后，花了整个下午和傍晚的时间，向Wayfarer学习搞部落格的技巧等等。买了笔记形电脑这么久，很多东西都还没弄好学会，真是够惭愧的了。学海无涯。一整个下午当然学不完计划中要“搞定” 的东西，唯有再觅下一次机会了。注：谢谢Wayfarer牺牲午睡时间，循循善诱的教导，还有借出几本不知什么时候才会归还的书：)

生命的重心在何处讲座

2006-12-19T09:22:00.001+08:00

18/12/2006 周一晴 10.38am上个周四，约了一个同学兼同事，到星洲报馆去听讲座，傅佩荣哲学教授，“生命的重心在何处？” 。很精采的演说。老子孟子庄子孔子易经论语什么的，有好多好多知识，在不远处，等着我们去探讨。在讲座上，傅教授说，人生有十六项价值，各分四组：一：年龄、外表、健康、聪明二：家庭、教育、专长、职业三：财富、名声、地位、权力四：朋友、志趣、社团、信仰每个组别中，选出对你最重要的，再从中选出三项。你可以问自己：“如果我没有了年龄，我，还是我吗？” ，如此推类。这个问题，每五年就问自己一次。当你清楚人生的价值观后，你就不会为了生活上的忙忙碌碌而迷茫。你会为了你所要追求的东西付出努力或是代价。或许你会问，我，找到我的人生价值了吗？大海中，朦胧见着灯塔。同志还需努力！！哈哈！

老哥的生日

2006-12-19T09:21:00.001+08:00

18/12/2006 周一晴 10.17am上个周四，我老哥生日。老规矩，寄个寿词短讯去。我妈的两个孩子，都是12月的孩子。一直以来，我们都没有交换生日礼物的习惯，所以也从没跟对方讨过礼物。今年，老哥竟然要我给礼物，而且还说我的生日在前几天已过，我的生日礼物，就要等到明年了。真是有够狡猾的！几天的不服气后，昨天还是决定，给他送个电子剃须机吧。他，可想了很久。老哥只有一个，就算了吧。下次走街，得要去survey survey 了。

高估自己，baru I kena padah!

2006-12-19T09:19:00.000+08:00

18/12/2006 周一晴 9.55am年终清假在家。停了整一个星期没有写些什么的，还除了忙于工作外，也为了让病病的右手中指争取时间好好休息。上个周二看了专科去，医生做了些东西。本以为我的耐疼能力蛮好的(因为一直以来看铁打推拿时，我都不像其他人般叫得天轰地裂)，不需要吃止疼药，然，当麻醉药一过，嘿嘿，baru I kena padah! 请了病假一天。众所周知，西医，什么顾忌都没有的。还有保留些传统文化的我，当然更小心翼翼了。除了不湿水外，另加不做重工。希望我的手，“醒醒定定” ，不要再“行错搭错” 了。

My fovourite song

2006-12-16T17:17:00.000+08:00

祝我生日快乐

2006-12-11T08:58:00.000+08:00

10/12/2006 周日晴 9.25pm0812，祝我生日快乐！放了自己一天的假。早上，睡到自然醒。去Pathlab抽了一小罐血做检查后，坐在大树下，喝着热腾腾的美禄，吃着点心。看似潇洒，其实。。。。。。大马的天气可热得很：)过后花了二十元，到陈医馆舒展筋骨去。不懂是否在一个星期里连续抽了两瓶血的缘故，下午累得有点不舒服的。睡了一个好觉。夜，和SP和Wayfarer，后连同QH和Pauline到PJ吃泰国餐去。原来Pauline是隔天生辰的。过后，再与SP和Wayfarer，到SS2 Coffee Bean去。谢谢他们的蛋糕，还有他们的用心 (^_^)这一年的生日，过得很自在，很舒服。与友人聚聚，谈谈笑笑。手机里有着朋友们的短讯祝福，有未到凌晨就捎来祝福的达人，午夜的YK，早晨的KK，还有我老哥，过后的同事SH和CP，WF和冬鲸。晚上有老妈子的爱心温暖牌电话。今年的生日，特别之处是，

还不赖的后备厨师

2006-12-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

4/12/2006 周一晴天 5.48pm那天老妈子看医生去。我自告奋勇地接下准备午餐的责任。较提倡蒸鱼的我，从没煎过鱼。为了满足老哥的胃口，就放手一试。嘿嘿，别说我夸口，我老哥可试不出是我的杰作，还是我妈的。不错吧，可以当嫁娘去了，当我找到如意郎君后，哈哈。

想_搭车上班的岁月

2006-12-07T19:12:00.000+08:00

4/12/2006 周一晴天 5.30pm刚过的周五搭巴士回家乡。在去总车站的时候，经过了以前我等巴士去上班的候车亭。想当时。。。。。。感恩。。。。。。嗨，当然无可避免的，天下没有白吃的午餐。有了车子，没了闲时，少了乐子，多了恼子。有了方便，多了考验。多了能耐，少了依赖。为了生活团团转，却时时想着跳出圈外。

偷得半日闲

2006-12-07T19:09:00.000+08:00

4/12/2006 周一晴天 4.45pm请了半天的病假。越来越outdated的我，才趁闲刚看完冯小刚的<<夜宴>>，真的是够落伍了吧。刚过的周末回家乡，蛮多事情可以分享的。然，得看看本姑娘是否有兴致，只靠九指手指，慢慢地将它给打出来吧。(注：如果手指完好无伤，哪有得病假，可不是闹着玩的。)<<夜宴>>。。。。。。服装、摄影，我都蛮喜欢的。故事情节，老套，煽动不了情绪。想传达的讯息不是没有，但仿佛还是少了根劲儿，像是教科书般，很容易让人过目而忘。我是个情绪很容易被感染的人。看着剧中人感动的画面，每每我都忍不住掉泪。这，好像是两年前才更趋严重的吧。或许是生活上的磨练，看了更多的人间悲欢离合，更让我感同身受吧。所以呢，如果一部戏剧，想要煽情，却激不起我的火花，嘿嘿，它在这方面，就好歹有了个限度。很多时候都觉得，被眼泪清洗过的双目，可以在心灵也被清洗的同时，把这世间看得更清澈透明。

城市女性紧急求生课程

2006-12-07T19:04:00.000+08:00

26/11/2006 周日先晴后雨再阴 5.23pm昨天出席了在一个报馆举办的“城市女性紧急求生课程” 。入场免费。如此好的课程，真不枉此行。导师Bala在风趣的言语下，教导了我们好多防范和求生的技术。好佩服他们的工作，是那么的为社会国家，人的生命而贡献。欣赏导师的信念。他不允许任何男性在课程进行的同时在场，包括主办单位的男性工作者。哪是因为我们被教导的求生技术是要用在男性坏人身上，而我们都不知道，在冥冥众生的男性中，谁将是下一个坏人。世间的知识何其繁多。Humanities。它，让我更想进一部的了解它。另注：以前，每次从报章上得知什么不错的讲座，都因为交通问题而作罢，不然就是得依赖身边的朋友，看看他们要去，我才跟着。这一次，终于化被动为主动。想要去的，都可以自个儿达成。很高兴我有这样子的转变。。。。。。

重拾友谊

2006-11-27T09:08:00.000+08:00

26/11/2006 周日先晴后雨 4.48pm自从下定决心要为自己的心情与想法作做个记录与解剖后，发现情绪和思绪都比我的闲暇时间快上好几倍。是花在工作上的时间太多了，无可否认，无可奈何，无可避免，无可救药。先说说前个星期的某天，与一位久违的朋友吃饭。谈了很多关于命和运，个性想法理想，还有什么的。很久没有吸取对世间的其他事物的知识了。我仿佛是在快要干枯的湖里的一条小鱼，雨露的降临，满足了我对生命的渴望。是的，我是曾经如此觉得宇宙的浩大，对世间的逻辑条理道理知识想法，有种渴望。其实自从考完试后，已重新渐渐尽我的能力，重组我想要的生活。除了工作现阶段还没能力改变外，现已重拾阅读的喜好。最近在看着一本曾经很出名小说的翻译本。想做的东西很多，想看的书也很多。时间，却是那么的不够用。说回与YK的那一餐饭，让我欣慰的是，一段曾经让我以为被我搞僵的友情，重拾而回。上帝还是对知错能改的孩子宽容的 (^_

“好”字盖章？

2006-11-27T09:06:00.000+08:00

19/11/2006 周日阴天 5.10pm昨晚，参加了朋友的结婚晚宴。地点很是豪华。为了这连续而来的三个晚宴，没有像样衣服的我，画了一大笔钱来“武装” 自己。没有男伴，本已打算自己驱车去，临时间，有位已婚的朋友说来接我，我也乐得其成。那位朋友是因为妻子出国公干，才独个儿出席。到了那儿，才发觉，晚宴是以国际自主餐进行，四个人一桌。每每出席这种宴会，都是“尽兴” 而去，“败兴” 而归。我不懂其他女人，为何总是吝于给予同性朋友一个赞美的话。有时候觉得，施与受的差距，相距太多了。我像个小孩，在家把功课尽其完美的做完后，老师却没在练习簿上打上“好” 字的模样。确实有人说，我们需要自我肯定，而不是靠别人给我们肯定。然而有时候，人心是懦弱的。昨夜，幸好有那位朋友相伴，不然更显得我形影孤单。四个人一桌，一对一对的。在老朋友间，我仿佛是个外星人。少了同理心，外星人慢点会绝迹江湖吧。。。。。。

老板？

2006-11-27T09:02:00.000+08:00

19/11/2006 周日阴天 4.15pm新公司人事阶级很多。以前在旧公司，虽然也有经理，高级经理的，但我们谈话时，都鲜少用“boss(老板)” 这个字来说出口。感觉就像一家人般和谐。新公司，有些人，动不动就说你老板我老板的。我总觉得，“老板” 这个词，用得恰当就还好，用得不恰当，很是碍耳。有些刚毕业的新新工作者，都会有一位senior指导、带领着。当然这位senior上面还有一层层的上司和老板。我觉得junior与senior这样的关系，动不动就说senior是老板的，听了很不舒服。或许我还是不很习惯大企业的作风吧。和谐亲切的，较是我的最爱。工作变动后，我有一位组长。组长是个好人。我们俩同样是senior，但我想，可能他比我高我一个grade吧(senior executive有分两个grade) 。与他互动和谈话以来，他把我们看成一组人多过自持是我们的老板。这是我乐得所见的。然，

大地震

2006-11-27T08:57:00.000+08:00

19/11/2006 周日阴天 3.05pm这一个星期以来，其实有好多事情想说，但终究发现，在工作天，确实很难在放工后，精疲力竭了，还能够对着电脑写下什么。上个月底，这个月头，我的部门发生大地震。大大老板对我上司的这一组，来个大整顿。我的上司，在我的观点看来，仿佛失去了大半江山，失去了一大半下属。而我，幸与不幸，都有。虽然还是在这位上司的下面，但我被委派去负责一个project，full time的那一种。之前虽然曾经帮忙过一位同事在这方面，但终究不是全然一目了然。那位同事，full time自个儿负责这个project已经一年多了。现在，换我去做full time, 那位同事就会领导这个小组，站到比较高观点的位子领导全局。刚开始知道这个大变动时，心情很低落。以前在旧公司也是在做的类似的project。就是做久闷了，想学学其他的东西，才跳槽。然而，兜兜转转，还是回到了原点。

保险产品

2006-11-13T08:57:00.000+08:00

11/11/2006 周日 12.00am那天，收到一位同乡的短讯，有点让我啼笑皆非。她是位保险经纪员。她或许不知道，我就是在她服务的这间保险公司总部上班吧。她的短讯是向我推销新推出的保单。焉不知，我就是为了这个产品，前两三个月忙得昏天暗日。说到产品，或许我还清楚过她吧。当然，我可没笨到告诉她。我可不希望放工后的私人时间还要为公事而烦。不过说真的，在保险公司上班的好处是，少了保险经纪员“朋友” 的反复推销。只要你说出你在哪里办公，他们都拿不出理由说服你，为什么还要多付些钱向他们买，哈哈。

新店开张_涂写

2006-11-13T08:53:00.000+08:00

11/11/2006 周末 10.45pm开张大吉！本店入伙多天，但因忙着考试，至今才正式开张。其实刚开始是以为这个部落格，是给冬鲸、Wayfarer、我和其他人合post的部落格。原来我搞了个糊涂。合post的部落格可能会在以后吧。之前告诉了冬鲸与Wayfarer这个部落格的网址。承蒙冬鲸的赏脸，新店还未正式开张，他已把我的部落格连接到他的上去了。所以呢，想赶快开始写些东西，报答他“大哥哥*”看得起小妹，哈哈。(*通常在这样的句子里，人家会用“老人家” ，但他只是大过我丁点，叫他老人家可连自己都说老了。)话说回来，我也是需要一个空间涂涂写写的，即使不是部落格，也会是在自己的心情记事簿吧。换了新工作已踏入第九个月。薪水是比旧公司多了，买了想买好久的笔记型电脑，也拥有了梦寐以求，今生的第一辆汽车。但天下没有白吃的午餐。工作的辛苦，承受的压力，不是一下子就可说得清。新车驾了将近四个月，