Smell....memory....

Last few days, in office's ladies room, don't know who, left the smell of make-up there.....the smell, exactly the same I had long long time ago....my auntie's make-up case....
When I was small, whenever there was any function like relative's wedding, my mom and aunties will gather together in a room for make-up. That time I was small, I asked for the same treatment and at last my auntie make up for me...
and this is the smell, flash me back to the memory of last time.....
Again...smell is the best element to keep you remember something, someone....the entire life....

Bento

This morning called my mom.....things not as bad as I think....maybe I just over act....anyway, hope my mom's health condition will getting better and better each day....

Met a friend in MidValley during noon time.... spent $ to buy things again....aiyaya...really spent lots this month....

Bought bento for my dinner before leave....guessing want to save money, choosing one....just now had dinner, only found out the bento I chose, is stated with "kodomo bento"....watashi wa totemo baka.....hahaha.....

Tears, Flying with The Moon and Stars......

Unable to sleep tonight....feel so so sorry and blamed myself of saying something wrong to my mom in phone call tonight....my tone was quite rough at that time, at least myself feeling so....feeling so down....

Unable to sleep, suddenly think of a book I bought two years ago, but not really read about it....a book teaching young children how to take care of parents when they are getting older....read about it, and suddenly realise the problem my mom facing now, are quite similar to depression.....

I blamed myself about this....why keep things and myself being excuse from getting this info earlier....some info about how to take care of parents, as a young children....what should do, what should not do....

I feel myself are so selfish....a lot of things always own interest come first....works, study, reading own interest story kind of novels, rather taking the correct move of taking care of my parents.....

Tears drop...everytime I feel uncertainty...don't know what to do....However, a short while after that, after my brain function to take up the analysis and make out decision what to do next....feel calm....things might not be too bad to take the move now....and the first thing to do on the morning, will be calling my mom to apologize....

I believe, people will get tougher and grow up when facing obstacles in their life....and God will always blessing this kind of people....

P/S: Tonight, I also get a step to know myself deeper....a person who is kind of "bu zhi shuo chuo" when first facing something, but able to sort it out when my rational is back to me.....

Rumours....

Last night received a call from my lovely auntie from Cameron Highlands. She purposely called me to off my handphone last night as hearing her friends said about the kong tao thing made from Indonesian. She said some people at her place already kena....off course I have asked about what have happen....well, can't say I totally or fully believe what she said, but I just feel no harm to follow.....just off the handphone for one night....which normally people also been encouraged to off hp time by time. And mostly the feeling is, I very appreciate with what I auntie have done....she is so care about me, until don't know how true is the news, but still called me up, from a hundred kilometers away....

I sms the info to a few of my nearer friends also after the phone call. Actually I also know they will laugh at it and thinking it is just a joke.....but you know, the moment I sent out the sms, I just feel like, I care of you all, and I do my part, true or not true, I just leave it be....Chinese people said, yau sat cho, mou fong ko.....

However, today morning, received a call from a friend....the first word she said, was like giving me the feeling of pointing out last night's thing is just a rumours, even advertised in newspaper....a bit of disappointed at that time....I know it will be this, but I thought friend is able to see my yong sam liong fu, of thinking of her whenever I hearing anything. Maybe thing is not that complicated as I think, or maybe I am just too sensitive.....

Recalled a scene happen four to five years ago......an old friend called me to ask to "meet up" one of her friend....something I said for the first words...."Thanks for remembering me, at that point of time..."

Am I expecting too much?

MSN time....

Initially the purpose of online today is to log in msn, to check out a friend in China, how is him....earthquake in China....a few city are affected....unfortunately still unable to log in the web....broadband speed very slow today....

12.36am, finally log in...saw his "name" in the msn online list....should be still there...thank God!!

12.39am, sent out message but no reply from him....anything wrong? broadband speed problem? or he is away from his desk?

While waiting, listening to 98.8, DJ 丽叶. Saw her picture in 98.8 website yesterday...a bit out of my imagination...hahah...her voice is very mature, and 感性, but her look doesn't look like, haha....

Like 丽叶's programme quite much....a guy called in just now, talking about his relationship with his girlfriend....some issue....from there, having some 感触about life....

独自生活了那么多年，已经习惯了独处，或许说是自由吧。很享受个人空间。即使是现在，如果想一个人时，又碰巧室友引诱我谈天，我也会慢慢的抽身而退。很难想象，如果有谁想剁录我的私人空间，我会有什么反应。我想，会逃之夭夭吧。

几年前，或许想法不一样。然，这几年，时间可不是白过的。对于成长了的我，我还蛮满意的。

今年，还是带着小鸭，有点感慨。有点像刘若英的角色，哈哈。不过相比之下，我还是比较喜欢刘若英多过张艾嘉和李心洁 ：)

1.13am, still no reply from friend in the msn....tired...so...log out...want to date with Mr.Chou shortly....haha...

发霉

Today, and the coming a few days....might be "turning to mushroom" time....haha...do not understand what I say? yaya....well, exam is just around the corner, thus will have a few days continuously not working, just staying at home for final preparation....lock myself from any outdoor activities, i.e. working, meeting friends, dinner appointment etc.....always staying at home, 发霉liao la...

Luckily I have TV, radio and online access at home. If feel bored study, still can take a break for these entertainment...can't imagine how I coped with previous time...4 to 5 years ago, when I still had no tv and notebook/pc. Well, can say that
我的适应能力蛮强的,haha....

Having cornetto mini ice-cream while reading friends' blog...is really type of 享受

Well, just found out, actually I am still not use to access online....after do a few normal activities, don't know which website I can spend time with....a bit boring pula....haven't heard before le, haha....

That's all for this time....back to boooookkkkssss.....

Dreaming....realizing....

Long time didn't write in Mandarin...well....beside lazy to do the han yu ping xin, can't deny my han yu ping xin is getting worst in figuring the words I want, hahaha....typing in English is faster....just...sometime unable to really quote the vocab to express the feeling I want, haha.

Long long time ago...when facing some weird feeling about something, but unable to figure out what is wrong (in real life), God is kind of helping me, let me find out in my dreams....However, too bad to say...this is not happening for long time already....maybe, God is giving me a challenge, to find out the reason myself...

Last night, dream of something....(won't tell the detail here, hehe)...let me flash back a memory of mine...about movie "Lord of The Ring"....Among the actors / characters, my girlfriend like Legolas (act by Orlando Bloom) very much...saying he is so so so handsome....but me? I prefer Aragorn (act by Viggo Mortenson)....well, from this movie, I realize I'm not really like "handsome", but something give me a feeling of...."wow, he is very man wo!!!" hahaha....

My Antenna Hilang....

Last Monday....sent my car for washing and wax....after that, wonder why I no longer able to listen to radio while driving in the tunnel....and in the lower ground of car park....worked till late for the continuous few days, and forget to take a look at the antenna....until the day before yesterday....only realize it....my antenna kena curi!!

Made a complaint to the shop of offering me car wash and wax. Unfortunately they are not responsible for it....saying his staffs all drive motor, thus won't steal my antenna....argue a while there, but still end up nothing....

After that, in the afternoon, heard a friend said....the antenna cost more than hundred...wow, so expensive??? sad lo...kena belanja again....anyway, met an ex-colleague yesterday....he said is less than RM 20.....who is saying the truth le?? Well, have to check it out with car accessories shop next time....at the meantime....just let it be lo.....

Some remarks about life recently....

Busy with work recently....at the meantime, preparing for exam again....weekdays focus on work, weekends for study.....exhausted....

I don't know whether you know it or not....motorola's handphone has one disadvantage...where it keeps beeping when you do not read the incoming sms. Previously, if I sleep early and there is any sms, I will be waken up by the beeping sound of my handphone. Now? guess what, I have no idea at all, and only know about it on the next day morning.....I truely tired, can say so....

Well, not blamming friends for sms me so late....actually I also sms friends before I sleep....that's the only free personal time, I connect to my group of friends....I guess, that's also the rope that still tie us up, till now....even life is busy....To all my friends who are reading this article, thanks for understanding....

Recently, feeling like lossing passion for things surround....feel like nothing can spark me up....include the receiving bonus....feeling like it is just a figure inside my bank account....however, if not receiving it, or receive less, I'll sure get angry for not being appreciated for the pass one year.....

For old friends and new friends meet recently....no sparking add to my life recently too....I think, things happen always need some sort of imagination.....something that can catch my eyes and mind....saying like gals also look for pretty, beautiful, smart and handsome, isn't?....haha...but who say gals should not act like man....well, that is gal. Girls are always so complicated....